So finally made it to day 90
looking deep inside of me
instead of the neck of an empty bottle
Looking for the first time clearly to those I can follow
letting open a heart that for so long felt hollow
waking up from the numbness of it all
catching myself as I fall
seeing & listening to those I can call
when I feel the crushing weight on my shoulders
but I’m now able to break these boulders
as I’ve learned to stand bolder.
I feel renew but wiser and older.
I don’t need to choke a bottle anymore.
I don’t wake up on the floor
wondering what happened the night before.
I’m here, I stand sober.
This won’t by my only 90 days or only a year.
I’m stronger. I’m older. I’m finally sober